It Doesn’t Hurt to Ask

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It Doesn’t Hurt to Ask

I thought I’d hidden

the desire of my heart

and buried it deep

 within the dark

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But God helped me see

  asking’s not in vain

as He brought sweet comfort

to ease my pain

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I then learned a lesson

about prayer at last

that I can fully trust God

and it doesn’t hurt to ask.

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Wendy ❀ 2015

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Have you ever longed for something–something you didn’t believe you had any real power to make happen?  I’m thinking of the kind of wish you dared not give voice to.  Would it be like a wish on a star that simply dissipates if confessed aloud?

It was like this for me about a special desire I’d had for years.  I guess I’d never got over the disappointment of purchasing a losing ticket; that ticket worked my hopes up to a lather.  It was my first and last play at the lottery; however, I soon adopted a biblical world view and lost any interest in gambling.

But I had taken my fear of risk to extreme.

Wasn’t it safer not to hope, not to ask, and not to dream?  If I just pretended the desire wasn’t there, I could go on with life and avoid any pain or grief–so I thought. It turned out that a buried desire can still live and breathe and wield its influence over the bearer.

One day, I got out the shovel and dug it up.  I gave myself permission to hope again.  I was sitting in the rocking chair in my upstairs bedroom of a heritage home back in Victoria, and on my lap was a journal I had just entered a quote into.

It is easy for us to be defeated at the outset because we have been taught that everything in the universe is already set, and so things cannot be changed.  We may gloomily feel this way, but the Bible does not teach that.  The Bible pray-ers prayed as if their prayers could and would make an objective difference.  The apostle Paul gladly announced that we are ‘colaborers with God’ (1 Cor. 3:9); that is, we are working with God to determine the outcome of events.

-Richard J. Foster

When I dug up that old desire, it became fresh and vibrant again, and I was finally receptive to my hope growing as expansive as God enabled it.  I humbly let Him know that I was going to knock on His door for as long as it took or until He graciously let me know I should cease.

Believing that I did have some input into my future dreams set my faith aloft.

To pray is to change is another quote of Foster’s.  It’s exactly what happened to me.  Once my beseeching began, many changes happened in my life that I now see were all part of the answer to the prayer.  So the “Whatever will be, will be” mantra that had been playing over and over in my heart was replaced by a belief that I would be heard, and possibly even answered in the affirmative. It was knowing that I would be listened to that seemed to empower my entreaties the most. If the answer was to be negative, then I would rely on His comfort.

Sounded like a win-win to me.

Twenty-two months later, after twelve years of infertility, I was lying down on a bed in the ultrasound room of my local hospital watching my unborn child waving his arm as if to say, “Hi Mom! He said yes.”

A longing fulfilled is sweet to the soul…

Proverbs 13:19

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He settles the barren woman in her home

as a happy mother of children.

Praise the LORD.

Psalm 113:9

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Prayerful Blessings ~ Wendy ❀

PS – I shared this post on my other blog in 2012.

But I wrote the poem recently.

I’ve got a new desire of my heart I’m now praying about.

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Are you asking God for the desire of your heart?

It can’t hurt.

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He Gently Leads Me

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The LORD is my shepherd,

I shall not be in want.

He makes me lie down in green pastures,

he leads me beside quiet waters,

he restores my soul.

He guides me in paths of righteousness

for his name’s sake.

Even though I walk through the valley

of the shadow of death,

I will fear no evil,

for you are with me;

your rod and your staff,

they comfort me.

Psalm 23: 1-4

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He Gently Leads Me

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I’m lead, by Him, so gently

and with the utmost care

to places that create in me

hope – rather than despair

His rod is used to guide me

I’m  blind without his cane

He nudges me – this way and that

onto higher and higher plains

It’s foolish when I long for

pastures not his own

for his lie by quiet waters

and his valleys lead me home

There’s a reason why I’m compared

to the simple, lowly lamb

for much like it- I’d wander

without the Shepherd’s guiding hand.

Wendy/2013

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When Ian and I first got married we had planned to have at least two children and to have them before I was thirty.  But since I was in recovery, from eating disorders in my twenties, our plan didn’t pan out.  My body was struggling to gain enough body fat and so my cycle was sporadic until my thirties.

Right when I was beginning to accept our fate (after a failed adoption), I read some encouraging words about prayer and decided to pray fervently for God to open my womb.

Within weeks of my starting to pray for children, my husband announced that a real estate agent had called and offered to give an appraisal of our home.  Ian was itching to move out to the countryside up island.  I was cozy and content where we were.

One thing led to another and we were offered a ridiculously high amount for our heritage home by a man who had just come into an inheritance.  He  loved our place and the gardens.  My heart sank until I listened to the Lord telling me that my husband’s dream of  getting out of the city was more important than a house.

We moved to a secluded acreage and I stayed at home while Ian worked in town.  My body responded to the healthy change and I gave birth to our first son after 12 years of marriage.  Our first-born was followed by our second son and our daughter until I was a 39-year-old mother of three kids five and under!

What I learned was that prayer opens the door wide for our Good Shepherd to lead us to where He wants us to be.  I also discovered that it doesn’t hurt to ask.  He is able to comfort me if his answer had not been yes.

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Surely goodness and love will follow me

all the days of my life,

and I will dwell in the house of the LORD

forever.

Psalm 23:6

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Good Shepherd Blessings ~ Wendy

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Has God led you to a pasture you had not expected?  Did you hedge like I did?

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